I feel guilty all the time. About everything. This realization came to me last week when I started going through Jen Louden’s The Life Organizer: A Woman’s Guide to a Mindful Year. It’s what I want to let go of: feeling guilty all the time. About everything. Some of things I feel guilty about right now are (and these are just some of the things):
- Career Women of the Bible book proposal still isn’t done.
- My workshop for teaching the women of the Bible is nowhere where it needs to be. And I’ve been procrastinating all day.
- My house is a wreck.
- I didn’t make it to Trader Joes or the farmers market today.
- The reason I didn’t make it shopping was I stayed up until after 2:00 a.m. Stayed up too late (or is that too early?)
- Got up too late.
- Wasted too much time on Facebook and Twitter.
- I don’t keep up enough on Twitter.
- I’m not evangelical anymore. Wonder what my evangelical friends think?
- I’m not ordained anymore. Wonder what my college and seminary profs and friends think? Or the people I used to pastor.
- I haven’t exercised.
- I haven’t done yoga.
- I shouldn’t worry so much about what other people think (But I do).
- I don’t write enough.
- I’m abysmal at keeping up this blog.
And this is just a smattering at what I’m feeling guilty about at any given moment. I don’t remember a time when I didn’t feel guilty about something. I was even a guilt-ridden kid. So I’m wondering how do I go about not feeling guilty all the time, when it’s been a default as long as I can remember? Have you decided to let go of default thought patterns? Where did you start?