I’m sure you’ve noticed the silence of my blog. I have depression, and a couple of weeks ago it swung into action. I think the trigger was preparing the presentation for the University of Phoenix and the assessment and interview (and how I worried the whole thing to death). The last two weeks have been filled with insomnia, headaches, dizziness, fatigue, worry, and anxiety. I found a great psychatrist here, and in addition to Paxil, which I already take, I am now on a small dose of Clonazepam as well. I’ve been on the Clonazepam for a few days, and I already feel better. I am sleeping (thank goodness), and my anxiety levels are way down. I am no longer worrying about every little thing. Honestly this last week it was hard for me to do just day-to-day things like getting out of bed and eating, much less writing.
It has also helped that the weather is springlike, and I can get outside and walk down to the lake (I’m enjoying it while it lasts: it’s supposed to snow this weekend). It’s absolutely beautiful. I took pictures, but I can’t find the cord to download them onto the computer. I am feeling back to normal with regular times of prayer, meditation, and exercise. I am also amping up the journaling so I can keep track of my moods and patterns. One thing depression teaches you is that you have to take care of yourself.
Writing a series on my experiences in depression is on the list of the subjects I want to write on, so you will probably start seeing posts on depression, how I’ve managed it, and what I’ve learned from it.
7 thoughts on “The Last Couple of Weeks”
Hello Jan. Thank you for stopping by. I keep finding more and more people like us, which is why I write about it. I’m glad it helped. Another blog to look at is Sally Coleman’s blog Eternal Echoes. She has been blogging her journey through depression as she’s in it. I think you’ll like her writing as well.
Correction–the blog was Hipchickmama’s–sorry for the wrong name!
I came over after your comment about Harry Potter and the lame epilogue at The Garden Diaries. When I saw a label for “depression,” I had to look, because I’ve struggled with clinical depression for 10 years. Thankfully, I am stable. I appreciate you sharing so honestly.
Thank you for your encouragement, and sharing in your struggles too. It really shows we need to tell our stories and support each other.
I’m glad things are easing up, Shawna, and pray that will continue.
Thank you for sharing this struggle; it encourages me as I reflect and prepare to post about my own challenges with PTSD.
Welcome back. I’m battling that grey monster too…but improving. Blessings!
glad you enjoyed the poem!
and more importantly i’m glad you feel up to posting and are on the road to wellness!